Settling In.

I'm 18 now. It's a good feeling I guess... Not much feels different.

Spent the weekend at my apartment, and will start moving my stuff in some time this week. That was a great feeling. I've never felt so free and independent. The apartment is pretty nice, and I have a bigger room than I do now, so, I'm very excited.

Shelby spent Sunday night and all of Monday with me out in Baytown. Went to Fuddrucker's Sunday night with my dad, his wife, my brothers Paul and David, my sister Savanna, and, of course, Shelby. Came back to Pasadena yesterday around 6pm and from there went to Olive Garden with my mom, my sisters Faith and Trish, and, again, Shelby. =)

Falling harder and harder for this girl as every day passes. Her birthday is the 22nd, and hopefully she has something better planned for her birthday than I did, haha. I'm at that stage where my heart aches when I don't hear from her or see her, and when I'm with her my heart is constantly racing.

Plus, she's the best kisser I've met. ;) She's very passionate.

Space Bound - Eminem

We touch, I feel a rush
We clutch, it isn't much
But it's enough to make me wonder what's in store for us
It's lust, it's torturous
You must be a sorceress 'cause you just
Did the impossible
Gained my trust
Don't play games it'll be dangerous
If you fuck me over
'cause if I get burnt I'mma show you what it's like to hurt
'cause I been treated like dirt before ya
And love is evil
Spell it backwards I'll show ya

Nobody knows me I'm cold
Walk down this road all alone
It's no one's fault but my own
It's the path I've chosen to go
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion whatsoever so
Don't ask me why I have no love for these m'fuckin' hos
Blood suckin' succubuses, what the fuck is up with this
I've tried in this department but I ain't had no luck with this
It sucks but it's exactly what I thought it would be
Like tryin' to start over
I gotta hole in my heart, I'm some kind of emotional roller coaster
Somethin' I wont go on til you toy with my emotion so it's over
It's like an explosion every time I hold ya
Wasn't jokin' when I told ya
You take my breath away
You're a supernova and I'm a...

I'm a space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
Right at you

I do whatever it takes
When I'm with you I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain't
With you I have zero strength
There's no limit on how far I would go
No boundaries, no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we think's
Gonna be that one and then once we get 'em it's never the same
You want them when they don't want you
Soon as they do feelings change
It's not a contest and I ain't on no conquest for no mate
I wasn't lookin' but I stumbled onto you, must've been fate
But so much is at stake, what the fuck does it take
Let's cut to the chase
But a door shuts in your face
Promise me if I cave in and break and leave myself open
That I wont be makin' a mistake

I'm a space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
Right at you

So after a year and six months, its no longer me that you want
But I love you so much it hurts
Never mistreated you once
I poured my heart out to you
Let down my guard, swear to God
I'll blow my brains in your lap
Lay here and die in your arms
Up to my knees and I'm bleedin'
I'm tryin' to stop you from leavin'
You won't even listen so fuck it
I'm tryin' to stop you from breathin'
I put both hands on your throat
I sit on top of you squeezin'
'til I snap ya neck like a Popsicle stick
Ain't no possible reason I could think of to let you walk up out this house
And let you live
Tears streamed down both of my cheeks
Then I let you just go and just give
And before I put that gun to my temple
I told you this

And I would've did anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But it's over now
It's too late to save our love
Just promise me you'll think of me
Every time you look up in the sky and see a star 'cause I'm a...

I'm a space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm so lost without you
So lost without you
Without you
Without you